paradiseeee*

hurhur.
today is feel-rich day.

wen to kbox with kuays
we kinda dumb la.
cant function the thg >_<
had a fun time singing
thoughs i cant sing in tune
it isnt my fault im tone-deaf. :p
but its fun (:
uhm we were jumping ard.
but dun dare to jump that much
cux apparently the door is transparent.
and that sucks.

had friedchicken from kbox
not bad larh.
sang from 12+ to 3.
took very long time to figure out how to insert songs
but quite lousy leh
they dun have simpleplan and arvil lavigne leh.

after singing,
we wen movie (:
madagascar!
i like to move it!
you like to move it!
she likes to move it!
they like to move it!
we like to
MOVE IT!

:X its kinda disappointing
cux vehh short. 1.5h only.
then its like you wan more but then end liao.
supercute thoughs.
(: laughing and laughing.

aft that grab famous amos cookie and headed to fareast
bought teeshirt.
ate waffle w icecream cux got promo

jiu wen home le.
aft getting stuff from zhiyan.


fun day (:




eleven hours to the flight.
eight hours to the airport.
thirteen hours + to thailand!


wun be ard for 6 days.
miss you pple (:
contd to tag hor! (:(:



cheers ;

temptation.

ok. im online again.
i buay tahan.
the comp just stares at me too much.

sorry ying
only succumb to the temptation now.
hurhur. made u go online to check the rates specially. :p

chia just called zy who called me.
zhiyan, weixin and weiching are in pga (:

theres a pile to teeshirts staring at me.
and the luggage bag.
but im so lazy.
and then theres the pile of hw.

*sprawls over keyboard and refuses to move*


i know it doesnt matter what we think.
things are often not within my grasp.
sweat beads of blood
cried tears of unjust
of dying to be understood
of dying to be the best that i can
i guess i wun be perfect
we wun be
how best can we go
how long can we sustain
izit time to live for me?
than living for people.

...
my parents are nagging, nagging and nagging.
i wonder if i will miss their naggings. *gulps.

dance`

im shag. ><;
so tired.
was walkin` and sleepin.

morns woke up at 0640
lai chuang for ten mins.
thens wen to sku for the winit dance prac
vehh funny
the dance is for the chengdu trip one.
choreographed by joy.
the choir head izit.
thens the moves vehh funny.
took damn long to get the hang of it.
but if u do it right its damn nice. (:

we danced from 8 plus to almost ten then sit ard and chitchat.
me zy jonathan and huiying were talking bout church ^^
thens me n amelia wen to help zhiyan and weiting with the orchids.
and wen back to wait for mr alex tan to see our dance.
sang a song with junwei's accompany on the saxophone.
its kinda weird. haha.
our dance aft geraldine left then became a mess of smth
vehh sia suay. haha. but we managed to think up of alot of moves.
managed to link them tgt.
but still wen back to dancing lose my breath ^^
more thatn half of the pple there know how dance that..
the sec 2s + azizi's item vehh cute.
haha. its cultural dance. malay + chinese + ...
actually i duno pete, hannah and yiting de part is what. uhoh. :X
but its vehh good, considering they only did everything in the morns. lalala.
aft that meet qiao at j8
got some miscommunication thats why she dint go for the dance prac
thens huiying qiao me zhiyan wen makan ljs and took neos
walked ard and bought stuff for out partners
huying left and the three of us headed for northpt to get uniquely spore stuff and cockshoes courtshoes
all three vehh shag. i can just lie on the floor and sleep ok.

me n qiao were gluttoning
and zy staring at our amazing expandable stomach
thens qiao left for home i thnk and zy wen to my hse to buy F4 vcds. hahahaha
its for her thai partner. they lurv F4. dun ask us why they outdated
we askin` that too.
and as for why i have the vcds.
...
nvm ok.

the winit trip has a gr8 grp of pple (",)
the sec3 guys are actually more funlurvin`
marcy jonathan ganjiao.
ands qiao huiying zhiyan pam amelia pete seepeng yiteng zhiling geraldine all quite funlurving (: the rest of the pple i duno lehs. but aft this jiu know le larh. ^^; lalala.
theres dance prac tml agns.
then kuays gg out.
need to go pack le.

two more days.
kind of miss everyone and everthg in spore lehs.
food. people.

just six days larh, aft all ^^

poof*

change #

hurhur.
wen ard lookin` at pples blogs.
guess this five months.
not too long, not too short.
but we pretty much change le barhs.

everyones caught up with all they are doing..
including myself and the kclan barhs.

everyone seems more drawn to the sec three class liaos.
although twothree wasnt exactly a very united class,
but its vehh interestin`
we got a weird mixture of pple marhs
missed the days and the pple.
we dun even say hi much to each other.

(:
i guess,
as quoted from bumblebee ;
only change is for eternity.

recently felt less burdened.
pga's over.
the speech's over.
ca's over.

what done has been done.
its the hols.
a time to recover and wait for a new beggining.
climbing up ;

these two terms loads of ups and downs.
wells, results all down. lol.
term two got improve a teeny bit.
obviously not good enough to compare with all those pple.
oorh ya! that day,
ismail: hmm. ur maths not very good.
me: the paper was tough (refering to the mama chong set de)
ismail: but theres pple that score As!
me: those pple smart wad
ismail: now! once u said that, it shows that theres smth wrong with ur attitude!
we are all equal. noones smarter *in a laugh2 tone*
yarh right.

back to my lamenting.
guides was loads of learning experiences.
knew loads of thgs i never knew.
good and bad.

friendships were tested.
we pretty much survived?

faith. i still have it. ^^
its all worth living.

seeking a purpose.
someday i will find it.


i duno what im tokin` abt.
gg to face my pile of hols hw.
i will survive!

p.s. petes a mean guy ^^;

lycheed

ytd.
the interview wen okay.
nth much.
but it pretty much screwed the 1st day of hols.

wdv.
then wen shopping.
cux apparently its my bro-in-law's brother's [distant relative mans]
wedding
and i have nth to wear
got a long skirt and a snk top.

(: the long skirt very puffy.
got princess feeling
so wen for the dinner

they got a romantic story ^^
so sweet.
the bride's gown so pretty.
its bluish purple
purples so pretty!~
its that kind that reflects light.
and its bareback. lol.

thens aft that
being the greedy family with high metabolism rate
we wen to eat agn :X
chicken wings.

thens wen home.
was watching double vision with dad
thens he wen to sleep.
and i got freaked.
so i wen to sleep too.



eating lychees.


tags #

`jass" yarh righht. u're welcome! (:

`a"uhm. wdv. i dun care abt potassium mans.

`pete"twothree rox! (: three more days~

`cixin"peng1kui4 = breakdown.
dumb. hmm. ok larhs.



three more days

balloons`fly #

im damn tired.
although all i did for sports carnival was stone.
its damn boring.
not enthusiastic liao marhs.
but tug-of-war vehh exciting.
twothree rox!
champs nehh!
but fourthree lost.
so depressing.
my whole area cheering for fourthree lehs. ^^;
oso duno why.
fourfive won.
but junwei got damn sick.
well at least he didnt got sick for nth ^^
hope the dumb pple wun go n eliminate tugofwar next yr.
haha when kfc started the carnival we were like "shoot yourself!" :X

its boring cux threefour by one hour jiu out of everythg liao.
not to mention we tio disqualified from nothing.
cux they were threatening to disqualify us.
from what i oso duno. considering we didnt got in for anythg.
as if we were the only pple on the grass la.
she just dun like us.
shes such a bitch

i dun think we are the only really bored ones.
considering they all (weiwen etc) link a long trail of balloons and let it into the air.
i wanted to take a pict, but my phone too lousy cant catch.

then the whole event the highest moment was running one round with the flag at the end
oso duno why y2 keep slapp into the flag. vehh funny :X
three fours a fun class (:
see youu guys a month later! cheers.

not exactly happy thoughs,
got a lot of homework.
will survive barhs. test of time management.

kuays wanted to go cartel.
then 3/7ers got dinner.....
then makk n jo cant go.
so left me n ying.
thanks ying ^^; never pangseh me.

sometimes feel so pathetically unwanted.
gawd.
nvmm. anw we went to makan. heng never over-order.
ate .. i cant rmb leh.
the maincourse + bread lo
talked throughout.
lightened up on things. thanks ying ^^

feel that we mature le.
ahem *koffs* not in terms of actions and likings,
thinking-wise.
really.

whatever it is,
kuayclan u pple dun abandon me leh.
i really will peng kui one.
haha.

met pajamas.
puqin jaslyn serene
and naomi jonathan quek and anne

ying n i just talked till 8 plus then left j8.
thots ;
worries. stress.
we will survive de.
we always do ^^


tags #
`pam_haha ismail is weird what. but hes nicer than my geog tcher now. shoot me
ehh u gg camp?

`a_uhm. ok. i dun take phys. haha u sound like u dun have a lyfe. aww.

`xin_right brained pple.
ehh ur sci is good ma. haha.

`dian_hey. ehh u are?




tml theres pga interview.
sian. hafen started on anythg yet
will start soon.
just give it a shot i guess. hmm.
sjab, jiayou worhs. altc ^^

just now holding a pile of books a blazer and a big bag.
then they all stare. ><

oorh ya congrats michael and cixin ^^
level champs worhs.






need to do stuff.
*poof*

survived #

i survived today.
the speech was kinda screwed.
they said i was shaking throughout.
uhm, emotionally unstable marhs.
broinlaw wen meet ismail.
he said im a "pleasure to have in class" and "very attentive" and that im different cux my humanes better and maths suck, unlike normal andersonians, the other way ard
*shrugs

its over
if its meant to be, it will.
i duwan to think le
drained ;
dun lie to me.

wen mos` with ber n zhiyan aft guides.
butterfly prawns
im just eating and slacking my lyfe away recently.
not to mention burning a hole in muhh pocket.
cartel-in` tml?

winits programme sounds promising.
(: once in a lyfetime ehh.
five more days`




# tags.

`ying_haha the template's words meaningful marh ^^;
ya lo, smth wrong with blogskins.
actually i gt a few nt bad ones. u online then u ask me lo ^^

`qiao_haha i like to cry.
not mei in the first place so dunnid to care so much.
haha i will talk when im ready and when theres a need.
i know that u`re there ^^

`a_uhm. ok. go get smth to do instead of stayin in front of the comp everyday thens.


sports carnival tml.
3/4 jiayouu (:

missing the good old days
but they are memories that wun rewind for you to live thru again.
i had memories i cherish
and im glad i do.

started, ended. the same way?

wen to take neo with jo and ber after the pga interview rehearsal thingy
long time since the three of us hanged out tgt.
our friendship strengthened bcux of guides
but now its lightening becux of it too.
its a cycle barhs.
a test that we have to overcome.

i screwed my term two results again.
i thot its was gg to be okay.
they just have to combine it with term one grades marh.

got minor improvements.
but still nid meet parents.
shall nerdify myself.
if this continues.. jiu jialat liao le.

thinking too much.
weakened.
cried.

who and what to believe?
is trust still there?
cant face them.



tags ;
`xin_yeah. the pokemon pig is daggling on my wallet.
i oso duno what its called.
i only know the first #150. >< ;

`qiao_haha i blog alot but not much pple read. haha.
yeay glad u are yong gong, can see u improving liao. my spects of course nice larh. cux its purple. duhh. that lunatic is irritating ok. i dun have mood to be freaked that day. i think my essay is freakin` lame. how. lol. heck. (:

`ster_haha thanks again for the layout. hehheh. yea, i gg thailand with the sku.
its sku event ^^; spore is ok la. lol. other pple get to go germany! my L1R5 bombard. then cant go lo. lol. dun think parents will allow me go for both anw.

`mermaid_haha u shud go. its fun. request for it to open to upper sec lor. go overseas with friends, so fun ^^;

`jasS_i write finish liao! haha. showed you what. thanks for the chicky stickers and lollipop n fruit plus. recently so nice to us. hurhurhur.

`huda_haha. i duno it means that. really arh? ^^

`pete_haha. how was choir today?


meiching, happy burfday! (:

i love maths.
i do.

liars liars liars.

uhm. ismail wants to see me.
so my L1R5 bombard again?
i thot it was okay.
*shrugs.


done with the essay.
theres pga interview rehearsal tml.
cant wait..


liars ;

chocz ;

Lyrics for Part One
Wouldn't it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
You could surf inside a chocolate tube
Ride your board across the wave forever
Get wiped out and never get a bruise
And if a shark came up and tried to bite you
You could say 'I'm chocolate - I invite you'
Wouldn't it be nice?

Lyrics for Part Two
Wouldn't it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
Chocolate roads and trees and birds and bees
Delivering all kinds of letters daily,
Every kind of purple parcel too.
And if the dog did try and grab a mouthful,
You could bite him back he'd taste delightful!
Wouldn't it be nice?

Lyrics for Part Three
Wouldn't it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
You could be a soccer super star.
The referee would blow his chocolate whistle,
A shot a goal would even break the bar.
And if you scored the winner
You could have the cup for your dinner.
Wouldn't it be nice?

Lyrics for Part Four
Wouldn't it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
Riding in the car would be a tasty treat.
Changing gears would soon become a problem
Cadbury dairy milk is so good to eat
When you arrive at your destination,
You'll be greeted with an exclamation!
Wouldn't it be nice?

(:

1500 more words ;

slacker ;

heehee. changed layout.
stole it from esther.
lured by the words.
some how saying that art is my lyfe? indirectly barhs. (:

wen out with ying aft tuition just now.
citylink, lavender army market, bras basah, bugis.
saw him.
ying saw.
grinned.

(:

ying got new bag n wallet (:
i didnt buy anythg today cept food ok.
shocking.

off to 2500 essay.

butterflied ;

yeah purple butterfly.
think will get tired of this layout pretty fast
*shrugs. whats new.
hafen accomplish anythg today
cept mango durian seaweed etc etc.

been stoning in front of the comp doing nth in particularr.
lalala. i deserve this break barhs ^^;
actually not really.
heck.


butterflied ;

pruple spects.

hurhur was too caught up on updating abt speech day
then forgot about what happened before that ^^;
ehh aft sku, me jo weixin n xuan rushed up to move the tables and stuff then me n jo ran to meet ying n mak.
we really ran ok.
then end up 4 of us rushed to amk central there de macs.
and guess what.
no breakfast its 1054 when the last box of hotcakes left my vision.
lol. drama sia la. so sad lo.
there alot of andersonians
sister (izyan) di (pete) and huda there oso.
then ying bought food and wen back
i ate burger *sulks.
then we wen to heeren to take my purple spects.
hurhur ms chia thinks its nice. lol.
but they say i looked fierce.
it is the clipped up hair lo.
not the spects. self covincing. haha.

we wen walkin` ard heeren,
maks looking for some gigantic tote bag. haha.
punkish big ones. (:
then met some andersonians too- meiching, anne etc.
kopped loads postcard.

wen over to cinne. and wen crazy.
i went to those put in coin n turn the knobby thing to spin for them some keychain that can stacked ontop of another.
and i vehh suay- i got 2 goofies.
goofy the dog from mickey.
then mak started singing "we are goofy-goof-a-gang!~" -.-"
the other time i got 2 bunnies.
im suayed.
then jo n maks vehh nice
they gave me a bulbasaur n pig from pokemon ^^
and the three of us wen crazy with the 2bucks thing.
u assemble the parts to becum like the thing u spin.
it can even spin out tiny plastic balls!
vehh hard to describe.
but maks vehh heng she want the pink spastic cat then she got it. and she wanted the pig and she got it but she gave me (:

then we rush back to sku, assemblin` it on the way. so fun.

we looked like little excited kids la.





oorh. the balloon cannot float liao.
its on the floor.
became denser?

oorh and i cant find nice layout.

off to mtv.

*poof*

speechday #

only updating now
was too tired ytd
holding a purple balloon [thanks zy] chemtxt big bag n wading home at 1130 last night

speechday wen quite well
the prize presentation was okie
waited for the fashionable late GOH and koh to give their speeches
damn long larhs. jitters.
made taboos here and there :X
and everyone saw my kuku hair.
crap.
clipped up all the fringe lo. im balding. *sulks.

the ex andersonians damn cool larh.
blazers and all.
some cartoon people stil bought a superr heavy bamboo plant for the sch ^^
nvm if its kuku, the girl so chio.
became so chio.
hurhur. superficiality.

then ran 6times to the GO to put their prezzies.
din watch the performance
but watched it twice arhs, during the rehearsals ^^;
was backstatge during the grand finale thoughs.
glory glory.
but the givings that lie behind those glory moments,
noone knows.

after that the distinguished guests and parent came dwn for refreshments,
me n jo scurried to change
but like no place.
apparently drama having chocolate fight.
and everywhere tinged with choc n makeup.
like my pinnafore. ><;
i dun really care larhs
as long as they return back the nicest smelling sec3 class- 3/4 ;P
i wonder why all the classrms in the temp blk smell weird.

wen oppo to the coffeeshop.
made them waited so long.
sorrys.
evonne n qiao watching the hell show on channel 8 and eating.
thens jo left shortly.
wen to change into PE shirt.
full U vehh hot.

oorh interesting part
theres a fwrickin` lunatic.
that man.
go ard disturbing pple.
he was like "oorh sorry, my shorts vehh loose"
then move it up n down.
if he dare to flash horh i cut mans
dun delude us.
wen to disturb george and the gang of guys
they looked scared
i wud be scared but i was too heck ytd.
vehh flustered aft the speechday
dunnid some drunkard to irritate me.
kept telling him to go away.

then the guys wen away and warn us to go away
so von n qiao nv eat finish jiu left liao.
we wen to wait for ber n yan
they cleaning up alone lorhs
duno why all the refreshment pple not inside
we cut thru the construction site to look for them
then left by the backgate and took cab.

slept for eleven hours!
hafnt been sleeping for the past 5 days or more.
only sleep like 5 hours or less.


oorh to all the speechday participants:
u guys rockk!

w/o the combined efforts of everyone,
anderson's false image wun be so gr8. hurhur.

cheers ;

`chocz.

chocs rock.

i over-ate again.
bk kids meal, choc dipped strawberry, choc dipped marshmellow, brownie.
gr8. spent all my money >< ;

was eating durian :X

lol.
wen novena with ying at 5plus in the rain this aftnoon
cux seemed to be of no help with the speechday deco.
sian diao anw.
so wen to walk ard.
pretty boring place.
cux she refuses to go to heeren to take my purple spects.
thynk gg tml before speechday.

yeay. get the dumb day over and done with.
its just putting up the best fake image for all the guests what.
make anderson seem so purfect.
since when do we have so many pots of flowers
and hang up all the artwork.
for what la.
i dun get them.

oorh today had kool pe lesson!
played with 1/2 guys.
though i didnt touch dao the ball much la,
but vehh fun ^^
entertaining.
strong team! damn fun.
didnt know yongyuan's cap's ball skill so pro.
u see ball, u see him.
the y2-wilson qid-maryam-yiling-jiaqian-khairul coordination vehh good too.
and izzah rocks! lol.

my grades got climb up abit this term.
thoughs the L1R5 is still considered bad in their sense
but im happy le larh.
at least improve marh~

the mass spch day rehearsal on tues was damn kool.
the grand finale so glorious.
din know the guy sitting there was amos >< ;
all the performances vehh good ^^
first time experience the anxiousness behind the curtains.

its just like living in death
and dying in life.
fun hitting pete on the head.
wen to eat cafe cartel for dinner with mak n jo.
(: feel so shiok.
ate loads of bread. :X

chinese talentime ytd vehh kool too.
pat sang so well!
and h.e.l.p not bad too ^^
the 4/2 one oso. 1001 wishes~~
voted (:* hope those that deserve it wins!
not fair. mr yong, mrs lim n mr tok ALL dun tch me.
*feels suay*


recently kinda drawn to butterflies
(not those supposedly expensive ones stuck on the pillars in the canteen)
oso duno why.
the movie? haha. we both found her.

oorh yarh, i wonder why pple get so affected by a few marks.
its not gona like kill you right.
esp since it isnt even a test.
haha. weirdos.
*whistles*


tags ;
`jass_super deformed! how how how. lol.
as for the doll. go kill cixin (: and u didnt go all the way thr to get me an art doll u see. u just got it on the way. dun lie!

`a_hurhur. yarh.

`nas_go go go. u betterrrrr kidnap me if some kool designer comes to kidnap u HORH.

`ying_we cant make it la. the bread ^^ ; go try agn smday. cartel rocks!

`huda_haha yeah so true (: its one crooked path. maybe thats why i kip fallin` down- literally.

`pete_*smacks head* yeahs. c u in thailandd!! lol as if u r thr already. im damn excited. ^^
go for waht u wan too kays (: jiayouu.




sleep ;

`

im such a glutton.

suffocated.

comforted by the stars high up
His fingers made
lightened up.

thank God everythg today wen okay.
i thot i will die.
with all the overdue stuff i didnt do
all the tchers gave extends. phew.

thunderstorm this morn;
struggling to hold the aluminium plate and bio n chem books
in the heavy rain.
cut myself >< ;
drenched;


wen to dnt lab this aftnoon.
a longgg time since i wen.
with qiao ber n zhiyan
did cf invites.

went amk pop.
saw him.
not as cute liao. lol.
aft the other him leave sku,
its gona be damn boring larh.

nvm.

what ber said is so true.
even when u do and nt get much,
u rather do and earn that bit
than dont do and get nothing at all.

lyfe wasnt supposed to be fair anw.
whoever said its gona be?

off to my pile of shits.
i hate functions.

bleh.

pooof*

# thots

most pple duno what they wana do in with their lives.
no vision, no purpose.

i dun have a distinct purpose.
nor a clear vision.
just a vague one.
help and bring joy to people ;
draw.

that simple.

sometimes it feels like whatever im doing now
wun get me anywhere.

but thats lyfe barhs.
u have to go thru all these
to get somewhere.

duwan lyfe to lead me
wan to lead my lyfe.

used to think u just haffa dream big, work hard and thats it.
grew up, realised its a lot more complicated.

its abt makin the best out of all these i guess.
forgot what else i wanted to say.
*shrugs.

off to paris lovers! (:
and chem *sulks.




dream ;
and hold on to it.

`fixed

apparently my art doll likes me.
its back.
but its daggling.
lol.

and u can pluck the hand out.
*sulks.

haha make a trip to art friend! (:
but i will be damn tempted to get art supplies.

yeay.

`my artdoll.

cixin spoiled my artdoll.
now its hand-less.
right aft i took a photo of it.
no wonder.
lol.

and shes been fixing it for 1h i think.
a little less than that.
but its still handless.
and shes hooked on it. she doesnt wan to stop!
lol.

(:
she tried to animate the art doll and let it clap hands to congratulate me for duno what
then *POOF* it broke off.

moral of the story- dun use art dolls for animation.
its for still drawings.
and now i cant draw.

(:

went service with her.
todays service was special.
no sermon.
loads of passion.

went to do eyecheck and make the new spects.
apparently my old old spects right lense is overpowered by 50deg.
*shrugs.

then wen home with xin.
supposed to do hw.
but we got hooked on the YEARBOOKS.
its SUPERRRRRRRR entertaining.

tryit.






*POOF*

p u r p l e #

im kinda obsessed with purple.
or mabbe i miss yi zhi mao too muchh. lol.
todays quite funn.

had breakfast with ta and ying at fareast bk.
tata aft a while then go home liaos.

bought ;
`blue pmk polo.
they having supersales. 10bucks for all tops. luckyus.
`skirt
`lost n found shirt.
`pens
`colourful wrapping paper

and went to get LOADS postcards (:
wen heeren_pacificplaza_fareast_j8_paragon

met wilson mavis weiwen and a guy (i duno his name) @ pacific plaza.
they enjoying life eating good food.
*jealous.

met fab and qiao at fareast during breakfast.
they came to find us larh to be accurate.
and at heeren.
then took train tgt with them n bryan.

met all the sjab peeps at heeren too.

lalala.
long long time since i shopped.
happy.

i thot i was fortunate.
then all the pple dismissed from sku ard 9plus lor.
ass never gives us the privilege of feeling fortunate that pple are having sku and we arent.

wdv.

hope i can have purple spects (:
was lugging the pmk huge tote bag ard.
act like designer. lol. laming ;

tagS #

`ber_uhmm. okie. mabbe. only time will tell.

how abt the problem get spirited away? lol.

`xin_haha the wound is okay liao. crap la. i need go for pe! *sulks.

`ying_shoppin` was fun (:

uhm the wound i duno if at first bloody anot cux i dare nt looked at it (:

thanks for alll ur encouragements for the thg larhs.

thoughs it postponed.

`jass_(: thanks for the CARDs [@ shibuya] u gona write me- in advance. hurry hurry.

i wan leh i wan. (:* so cute lorhs. lonelyyyyyy~~~ :x

`a_uhm duno whats that.

`huda_hurhur thankkkks (: hope ur fri was fun (:

`nafeeshah_heyyy kf1-er. thanks for tagging (: stay cheeries.

`pete_thanks for taggin` see u in thailandddddd~ lol!

`sarah_lol i not vehh sad larhs. thanks loads (:

off to homework.

pui *

un-shell ;

theres no sku ; tomorrow.
deeedaaadumm.
andersons yi mao bu pa stingy larhs.
goldrush yet only one day off.
thens, better than nth.
going town with yingying (:
hope L1R5 dun bombard.
wann go lasalle.
the 2 sentences so contradictory, considering u dunnid good grades
to go to lasalle seriously.
obsessed with it recently sia (:*

got a whole list of work to do.
having geog hw for the first time in months.
june/july seems ultra packed.
worried. excited. stressed.
take it as it comes barhs.


shall get over him.

world;

他们不懂,
他们不了解.
我们是不同世界的人.
太小的心灵,
溶不下我们的悲痛.

forget_it ;

if i can peel open the earth,
like how u break and open an egg..

leave me broken;

Your Birthdate: October 14

With a birthday on the 14th of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas, and you are also very good at organization and systematizing. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine, and rebel against it. You have a tendency to shirk responsibility.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

got this from yixuans blog (:

Your #1 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #2 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

What's" Your Personality Type?

`kuays_outing.

was fun (:
besides the fact that im stupid.
ran and fell.
now its bloody.
crap.

yeah wen service.
its parents week.
so kool. but the whole service like slow down.
and was in half dictated in mandarin. so funny ^^
never hear them speak in madarin before.

thens aft that met them @ bishan.
got stuff.
then wen to harbourfront.
to go to sentosa.
kool ehh. wan go jiu go (:
kuays style marh :p
then took shuttlebus, bought entrance tix
and take island bus there.
threw bags and ran into the water.
so shiok.
played frisbee.
laid on the float and talk.
sat on the float and interrogate.
sang loads songs.
like put hands on one anothers shoulder and go ard in the water singing
the more we get together, together, together...

then the little boi stare at us >< ; had fun in the water. wen to change. then met pjs (: puqin jaslyn serene btw. then wen out of the island with them we wen plaza sing pizzahut discussing the unjustice of the world. saw this woman complaining to the restaurant manager like pointing to a few waitress serving and grumbling this and that. the whole restaurant is so crowded im surprised they can still sustain. yet they just wana complain. go to hell.

then wen to mrt station.
fell. >< ; frankly speaking, its damn pain larh >< ;
act strong only marh.
but u all dun feel bad larhs. not ur fault.

thens wen orchard find sis n broinlaw to bring me home so ma wun scold (:
yeah. i waiting for them to go sleep. if not i cant treat my wound.

yeah.
thanks kuays for such a great day.
dun let the last part spoil the day.
sorry was looking pissed.
pain ma. its either that or i will cry.
so i look pissed lorh.
blehs. nites

(:
happy mothers day.

puzzle`

mmms. for lays.

puzzles are interesting. when pieced together.

they form something so magnificant. it wows u.

yet. alone. piece by piece. hardly any seems to make sense.

it's just like life. life can be represented by the puzzle.

things you are doing now. each is a piece of the puzzle ur making.

it may not make any sense as to why u r doing it.

why its dere. it may seem as though there's no purpose to it.

but without them. de puzzle wun be complete. just as ur life wun be complete.

everything ur doing nw contributes to the puzzle ur making.

everything dat comes ur wae. dat u need to do.

though it seems useless at tat point of time.

you will eventually come to realise why u had to do dat once useless thing.

it plays a part. it reali does. everything you do helps u grow and become a better person. everything is a learning experience. dun lose that one piece of puzzle just because there's no meaning in doing it at tat point of time. just do it. the significance comes on ltr. when more and more pieces of the puzzle fixes together. and things start to get clearer.

waaa. ok. think its crap. but hope it helps lars. lols. nt good at translating my thots to words. just wan ya to be refreshed. to lead a purposeful life. and nt let everything be a blur. its tough. but hang on babe. im owaes here. a pillar of support. =D *hUGx.

hehhehs. thanks qiao (:

someday the puzzle will be done barhs (:

yeah im trying to do everythg that im doing right now w/o questioning much.

i think too much.

hope u dunn think too much too (:

*whacks qiao's head. yeay. i killed a million brain cells.

gg service now (:

and off to beach. some beach larh. with kuays.

hurhur. long time since we hanged i guess.

taggs`

`qiao_haha yeah i know. thankks for everythg ((: see above ^

`a_erm. it doesnt matter if we rmb anythg aft life anot. its abt doing everythg in our lifespan and living this teeny life to be remembered and to inspire other pple and the same time realise things youu never will realise what.

if u dun find doing anythg meaningful, then u aint living a life.

`xin_erm. okie. i hope u will stop singing x.x

haha. lol. kidding. see youu later! (:

dance ;

from xin's blog ((:*
thanks xin.

For Lays,I hope you dance, layling.^^
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out,Reconsider.
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glanceA
nd when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance (Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance (Rolling us along)
I hope you dance (Tell me who)
I hope you dance (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder where those years have gone)
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance I hope you dance(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance (Rolling us along)
I hope you dance (Tell me who) (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance (Where those years have gone) (Tell me who)
I hope you dance (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder) (Where those years have gone)

test`guides`cake.

oorh so cixin they all were right
the fann wong is really avenging the dad
*shrugs.
simple minded marh.
i thot she really like arh-sheng.
ppfft. *slaps ownself*
wake up to reality. wake up. wake up.

i think almost everyone gona fail amaths.
wells. mabbbe those smart asses will pass.
felt like throwing my wallet at that woman.
coming in and crapping and grinning and laughing at us.
ttp says she included sec4 syllabus and the Q will not be counted.
who cares.
as if maths helps youu in lyfe.


was superr down this morn.
if im in the river i gona be so low i will be deposited.
lyfe hasnt been enjoyable since `05
okie the few instances.
but other than that.
its a blur.

had guides.
nth much.
discuss heritage stuff and campfire.
voting.
top6 out on tuesday.
wonders.

the matches of aguides against sjab and aguides against ncc damn fun.
super hiong sia. (:
exciting shit.
i wasnt playing.
cux i cant play.
wonders why i dodge whenever a ball comes my way.
and got muscleache
from the duckwalk crabwalk and frogjump.
anderson zoo. ppfft.
i dun get aches from camp/ the china climb mountain thg lo.

aft the matches
we wen makan the cake.
its supposedly for mothers day.
but we just ordered to support juniorr.
wen to another playgrd to eat.
heart still wandering about.

reply tags.
`a_ i really wonder why u like to tag at my clique's blog so much.
whatever. ya yellowish gold is ugly.
you aint born to die.
u are born to go thru stuff and die with those stuff remembered.
if we are born to die whats the point of living?
its about how you live your life. not how long you live.

`esther_ haha thanks. trying.

`munyee_ haha yeah i go write another day super lazy (:

happy burfday vonz! (:

off #

i know i know.
im gg off the comp liao.
changing layout for the third time this week?
cant rmb.
i really wonder why i change layout whenever i feel down.
hurhur.
the previous layout i like but damn hard to edit.
the html always cock up.

back to square one.

think i shud go n touch maths.

purpose`i seek_

so perplexed ;

whats my purpose in lyfe?
i wish i know too.

just studying blindly lyk everyone else?
striving for nice numbers.
`cause theres nth else to do at this point in time?

i really wonder.
why do they compare so much?
is it that significant?
u wun die if u get one less mark than someone else right.
if dying is so easy..

i have this lyfe
i duno how long it gona last
but i wann to make the best out of it.
but how?

maybe im really thinking too much.
feel like dying my hair aquablue.

feel like such a bad friend.
dunno larhs. i also duwan to affect pple when im affected.

learning to smile and let it go when upsetted.
i wish. but i duno how.


feel like going into the rain.
sitting down and let it fall all over me.
and cry.

want to be refreshed and cleanse again.
rebirth ;

oorh zhiyan, happy burfday (:
p.s. amaths sucks.

tags.
`qiao_i know i have been giving up lately. on grades anw.
but u cannot horh. u sec4 marhs. :p
haha yeah i will survive the process of waiting for the boat to straighten itself at the dockk.
the analogy sounds amateur. >< ; thankss for everything. wish i cann be a gr8er fren. (:

`jass_hurhur. ten neos. (: i know i have been moody and uptight recently. anw hope u remain yourself horh. dun get influenced by them. hope u know what im talkin` about.

`anqi_haha my chye? he taught my class ipw and it din go too well *shrugs erm amaths. hurhur. >< ;

`xin_yay cut hair cut hair. yarh rain rawks. tml we try to take the photo agains kay (: *grinns. thanks for crappin` and les-ing with me.
hurhurhur. anw the bird just wan a nice branch to rest on to sing. think so much. got bird eat rose one meh?

the last melody ;

the bird is flying and searching.
searching for the best branch.
the prettiest flower.
the greenest leaf.

let her chirpings ring through the air.
to wake the autumn morning.

then she spotted it in the distance
a delicate flower
with numerous petals

she flutter her fragile wings
and landed on-
a rose branch.

the thorn pierce through her
she sang the most beautiful melody
flutter the last of her wings
and died.


the story behind fir's chi niao
thorn bird?
qiao told me one.

reminded me of the word passion.
the birds teeny passion for singing.

like the passion of art
of sports, of food, of serving, of leadership.

somehow or rather
i think postman is quite a passionate job.
anw if i ever become a postman
i shall tear away all the bills and only deliverr the lurv_ letters.

if thats possible.
its a practical world. hurhur.

wen j8 aft sku with tata.
she reminded me.
has been a long time since i wen out with no particular reason.
rushing about getting presents, to tuition, mugging.
lifes been really hectic.
and ta sorry bout the neo.
i stupidly erased everythg she deco-ed. ><;

reminiscing about the past
sometimes i just feel down aft sku,
"ehh ta, wan go beach?"
"suibian lorh."
then we jiu juz make our way theree.
she will just sit there and look at me scream
and draw stuff on the sand for the waves to wash away.
it was that simple.

then was also reminded of munyee.
that time i wen china she gaf me this a4 sized envelope.
for each day i was there she wrote me a letter (:


may all the little grains of sand
be trapped in the glass hourglass
that when all the sand had drained thru
and i unturn the hourglass
all the memories will run past me
and friends forever i will say.


(: *

layout ;

hurhur this layout actually i saw it hell long ago.
but im apparently on the comp for 6h plus liao
yet i cant find a decent layout.
*shrugs.

recently kind of vulnerable to stuff happening.
weak.

wishh that the test weak will get over fasst.
and i cann get decent grades
if that is even possible.
i feel like murdering all smart people.
(: *evilgrins*
serial killerr_

got to mugg soon.
or get arrested for murderrs.

lame.

me_

imno longer not cheerful.
im not vehh easy to get along with.
im weird. im easily affected

im at a lost of wordds too.

duwana thynkk anymore.

the pieces ;

if people in the world are two peices of puzzles

; there will be cases that they fit together almost perfectly.
like the countless longlasting relationships out there

; there will be cases that one piece is bigger than the otherr
like how one overpowerr the other

; there will be cases that they just dun fit tgt
like people that never know the otherr in their entire lifespan
or people that simply clash

; there will be cases that they fit together but theres an extra part juttin` out
a past that one carries on to the next relationship

; there will be cases that they fit together but theres a little chipped off part
smth missin` in the relationship that will complete it